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Vrydag 17 Mei 2013 • 04:46 • 0 comments

hi.. my mood is low now. not because my illness. i feel jealous. super jealous and envy to my friends that are still studying at malaysia. i have the money to school at there. but why i don't have the brain? feel disappointed to myself. i wanna cry. although tomorrow will be the last exam, but i don't feel happy at all. God,why?

Exam's week

Dinsdag 14 Mei 2013 • 21:11 • 0 comments

i don't know why i write this post. hahaha. should be nervous because of exam. yet i still have the mood to write on blog. today's exam is marketing. i hope i can do well on this paper. this paper is the exam that i worried most. not because it's difficult,but because the lecturer don't give good mark that easily. last semester final exam everyone got disastrous mark for this paper. 2nd semester which is this semester went very well. i was absent only a few days due to sickness. my mid term result was very satisfying.

something happened a few weeks ago. which is around 2 weeks ago. i did silly thing. that everyone would never imagined. i was really stressed out or something like that that i ate 50 pills(my sister said) of lithium,risperdal and lamictal. lithium is high dose whereas the rest low dose.my head was spinning and very light. i couldn't walk properly,couldn't sit. it was very severe that it considered lucky i managed to live/survive. i don't know why i did that. but one thing for sure, that time my mind was full of death and suicide. i don't know why it happened. everything went well. but all of sudden that happened. even my mom shocked and didn't predict it would happen.

okay~~~ live till today is truly a gift from God.
my wish. my small wish. don't know whether it can be true or not.
i want to get 4 for my GPA.
i will be truly happy if this really happens.
GOD, please grant my wish.
amen.
will end this post with these pictures.

mother's day gift.

how beautiful. glad that she like it.

goodluck for today's exam shirley! you can do it.

Back again

Maandag 25 Maart 2013 • 00:35 • 0 comments

Ohwell. If u are my college friends. U probably know that I was absent for a quite many days which is around one month. The reason was reasonable. I was sick.... from the way I talked on social networking u should have guessed. 也许我在讲梦话. To be honest,when I'm back again to social life,I felt a little difficulty to mix up with my college friends. I feel there's a barrier. This is only a feeling tho. I hope.
Today I'm sick again but it's just normal sick. A little cold and fever a few days ago..
A lot of thoughts pass through my mind. Really a lot. I always wish things go well. I wish to get what I want to get. Maybe you are wondering why all of the sudden I wish for many things?this is why.
I'm really thankful I've got parents that love me without any reason. So I want to do something for them. Something great and extraordinary to repay their deeds. Their generous love,everything. I wish god grant me this wishes

First post

Sondag 24 Maart 2013 • 05:01 • 0 comments

Hahaha where should I start with this post?I have nothing to say. Don't even know why do I start blogging when I don't know what to write. Hahaha. Okay should just probably talk about what happened recently! Life has been treating me nicely I guess. I don't know what statement or argument can reinforce this point. I just feel that way. Midterm has just over. Kinda worried over this test especially for marketing. I felt I answered wrong at the moment I talk with Christine about this subject. She gave her opinion and it was actually different from what I've answered. Marketing is always a nightmare for my class I think. Why? We all got bad marks for this subject. I wish I can do something towards this subjects. Merely studying certainly won't help anything. I'm sure of it. I wish I'm good at logic,just like him. Speaking of him.... I literally met him twice but I don't know why I have interest in him. He's perfect to me. Okay maybe not to others. To me,he is.... umm mybe that's all. I've nothing more to say. So maybe I should end here. Bye! Till then~

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